Nothing exciting is happening with us right now - which I have decided is a very good thing, after the week that I have had. I have 2 health children, a loving husband - life is not bad.As most of you know I work in a rehab center for women, what is awesome about the center is that women may bring their children or have the opportunity to be reunited with their children because they are in recovery.
I won't get into the drawn out details from all sides that lead up to the decision, but in sum a woman was being discharged thus loosing her two children.
I have had the opportunity to have a good relationship with the woman and her children. I have listened to her story, everything dealing with her life and recovery, but then on a professional level I know her file, I know her progress.
Because of the situation we felt it was needed to do extra checks on this woman during the night and be on high alert in case she tried to leave with the kids. The task seemed simple enough, after the first check I realized it was not a simple task. At each check, until 3 a.m., the woman was in her room sitting near her children, just staring at them, caressing them, even holding them while they slept. It was heart breaking, knowing she had made so much progress, but nothing close to a healthy home that her children deserved and need.
Finally having to wake her up at 5 a.m. so that she wouldn't be late for the court appointment. Standing in the doorway and watching while she kissed her children one more time - possibly never seeing them again. All because of the choices she had made and continues to make.
That day, I held Diego closer, stared at Jordan longer (it did freak him out), appreciated my family, my life more. Even having to think about kissing my children one last time......too much.
I have done a lot of reflecting - how lucky I have been. It is not a stretch to say that anyone could make similar choices - bad choices. I have met such a variety of women at the center, it is not fair to say that it is only a certain kind of people who make such awful decisions that lead to self-destruction. I am not solely speaking of substance abuse.
I am not without making bad choices - what I am saying is that I have been lucky and blessed that life has gone so well.
